Who is Naday?
I have used up my bad luck, just when I think nothing bad can happen to me again, well because too many bad things have already happened to me.
When I think I can’t be broken anymore, just because I have already been broken into a million pieces. Then life whispers to me "billion, trillion and much more."
It is darkest before dawn, but then dawn doesn’t show up, it just keeps getting darker, I think it can’t get any darker but then it does.
Is this as cold as it gets? Nah! The universe shows me that it can be colder, that it can be more painful, more stressful, more painful, that it can be much more painful.
I get lost and in trying to find myself I get lost even more.
I have used up my bad luck or so I thought. Am I proof that even when I get the worst of the worse, with no promise of good, I’d still stick with the Creator, the love story of the creation and the Creator?
Whatever happens, I will keep fighting, I will keep fighting the voices in my head, the world, even myself. I wouldn’t stop fighting, it is all I know, it is all I have ever known. I will do it till death wins the fight against me.
I will keep doing what I can do, I know I have already lost the battle but I don’t know how to not fight. How do I not be lonely? How do I not be cold? How do I not be lost? I don’t care if I get lost even more, it is an adventure. I don’t care if the pain is too much, I will even inflict more on myself. Heaven knows I am already one many time too broken.
When I think about it, life is hard, life is bad, life is tough but then life can be worse than this, and that right there is my comfort. My comfort is that life can be much worse. and if life finally becomes much worse for me than anybody else then I guess for once I wasn’t mediocre, I finally became the best at something Naday. Wait, right?
