What I Learnt From My Existential Questions.

Einstein was right, time is indeed relative, I might not have an equation like the Special Theory of Relativity to prove this but I definitely have the experience to prove it.
Moments like this help put things into perspective, even from my very core I questioned everything.
If my mother hadn't married my father, I wouldn't be in this situation.
If I studied a four-year course instead of a five-year course I wouldn't be in this situation.
If I didn’t go to serve my father's land I wouldn't be in this situation.
If I hadn't eaten yesterday I wouldn't be in this situation.
If I hadn't eaten a tricky dish last night, I wouldn't be in this situation
if I had spent a little more time in the toilet by 3 am I might not have been in this situation. So many ifs, and so many existential questions but all that mattered was that I needed to use the toilet.
I don't know what the time was but it was surely within 1 to 59 minutes after 5 am. I had to be at the parade ground at 4:45 am along with the rest of the prospective corp members.
My earnest expectation was for the time to be 7:30 am so that I could rush to the toilet.
The time was moving extremely slowly, not like we could use our watch on the parade but I could just tell.
The camp director already said in her first speech to us that the schedule was highly regimented so I wasn't surprised that time usually went away quickly.
Since I arrived at camp, I didn't have time to work, I didn’t have time to write, the time to sleep wasn't enough, time to eat wasn't enough but right where I was, time was excessive, time moved slowly.
Parade attenshun! stand at ease! the continuous command the soldiers gave us. For some reasons, the soldiers shout it like they are speaking in tongues.
Every 3 seconds I spent on the parade was an achievement, I wanted 7:30 am to come but the sun hasn't even begun to rise.
Every minute I spent on the parade ground seemed like 10 minutes slower.
The soldiers who I already established to be mean became nicer as every second passed by, so nice that as soon as I heard the announcement to begin the Manowar drill, I ran to explain myself to the soldier who usually coordinates the parade.
Whatever I said, I can't remember, all that mattered was that I was given permission, and after explaining myself to a couple of soldiers as I was running to my designated restroom, I finally got there, when I was done the world seemed a little brighter, my paled face brightened up.
I got back to the parade in time to stand attention with the rest of the prospective corp members and other officials to observe the 6 am routine.
I learnt that time was relative, I learnt that I could do my work and write even with my busy schedule, and I learnt not to take a tricky dish a night before a big day.